What does that make me?

Another bites the dust. I thought one would be more than difficult for me to handle, but now two; Two whom I gladly call “sisters”. To have to put up with their unjustifiable behavior of seeing someone who’s not single. Why should I care? Who am I to judge? I am nobody. And it is absolutely none of my business to say what I am about to say. But, I, as a friend, a good one that is, am I not justified to state my opinions? Sometimes, I think I care too much. What they do with their lives should not be any of my concern. They can do whatever that pleases them and not move me an inch, but being me, I just can’t let it happen. To allow these assholes to even get a second of their youth. They are nice girls and to waste time on these scraps is really not worth the time. Why waste time and effort when you know he’s not going to be yours? If you really think for one second that they’ll someday leave the family and become yours, jolly well dream on! So you may think you’re just in it for the fun. Yeah sure, a month, a year then years. Then what? If you think you can control your emotions and not fall to deep? DREAM ON! You’re already in the ditch! And to say you’re in it for the fun makes it even worse. Then you’re ruining someone else’s dream of having a wholesome family. That’s totally undeniably selfish and senseless. Put yourself in the other party’s shoes. If your man decides to cheat outside, HOW WOULD YOU FEEL? WHAT WOULD THAT MAKE YOU? It’ll break your heart definitely. It’s not like you’ve not been there. Why don’t people think before they act? Please, don’t give me that bullshit of love is blind, when in love you don’t know what you’re doing crap. Because THIS is so not LOVE! Karma works it ways my friends, when it comes knocking on your door, please don’t cry and ask why you. You had your chance. And don’t tell me I didn’t tell you so.

What’s in their minds when they decide that this path is something they chose? I’m curious. I really am. Fun is definitely not the sole reason. Do you not think of the consequences? Maybe not initially cause you’re blinded by his charm, his looks, money, whatever. But after, do you not think of what your actions may have caused? All the gossips that you stir for yourself, the perception of others on you, the respect that you earned now gone, and especially the disappointment when your loved ones find out? Where are you going to hide your face? Did your parents or the community not teach you anything? Where are the moral values that have been instilled in you ever since young? You know this is wrong and yet you still went head on. Is it just temptation? Curiosity? What is it? You may not give a fuck because you know what you’re doing. Or you may not care because this is what you want and that you’re happy. But take awhile and think not for yourself but for others because this does not only concern you alone!

“Birds of a feather flock together.” “Your friends are who you are.” Who am I? What does that make me? Will I be one of them? I was disappointed when I found out. Very if you must know. Of all the talk you talked, you didn’t walk the walk. Of all the shit you have given others, you remain to choose this path.

I think I have said enough, and I sure hope I don’t choose the path you guys are walking on now. But I will love you both for who you are but not what you are now.