anGry!

Have you ever been so mad that you don't know what to do? You're so angry you feel like punching that wall, but not angry enough to do such a stupid thing because you'll only hurt your hand? So infuriated that you just feel like throwing anything within grasp, for example, your mobile, but sane enough to think that if it breaks, you'll have to waste money and get a new one?

Seriously, what do you do when you're that mad? Most of us can't think straight by now. But I'm surprised that I still can. Ha ha. If that person was right in front of me, I would have punched him in the face. Then again, come to think of it, it's just a figure of speech. I'm usually not violent. I'll just give them the silent treatment. Or cry. I'm very good at that. Especially keeping quiet. I can keep quiet for hours. Then I'd go to bed angry! I wish I can let it out sometimes. But I've thought better of it. All hell would break loose if I ever lose my temper.

But sometimes, anger is only something you choose to feel. You can totally ignore it if you want, which is usually very difficult to do. But it can be done. I am angry right now because I chose to do what I did. And I can't complain because I should have known and I asked for it. Therefore, I shouldn't even be angry at the first place. Cause, really, I should have known better. And I can't complain to anyone because they'll only say, "I told you so." So, this is really a displeasure I would have to deal with, on my own. I remind myself all the time that life's too short to be feeling this way.