Why you, or rather, why me?

When things go terribly wrong, do you often ask yourself 'why you'? Why not your friend, or your friend's friend, or your nosy neighbor or your frienemy? Then you start to have all these questions like 'I've done nothing wrong, so why me?' or 'I've been doing good all along, why me?' Or 'What have I done wrong to deserve this?' You get my drift. Like when you have arguments with your boyfriend/girlfriend, or when your boyfriend/girlfriend ill treats you, you start to wonder why you. Mind you, I think a lot of people go through that. You're not alone. It's part and parcel of growing up and learning. Experience makes you a wiser person. Plus, like I always tell people, everyone has a choice. If you choose to stay in this fucked up relationship, don't ask why you. Because you stayed by choice. Anyway, that's beside my point. That's something you can help. What if something happens to you that's beyond your control. Say, for example, a passing of a someone you love. I am pretty sure many would ask 'why me?' Like why take someone I love so dearly and so important away. So really, why you? I don't know how one thinks or how should one think. But I think....

I am having a severe breakout right now. Like bad. My heart breaks everytime I see myself in the mirror. My self esteem has gone to a minus 20 or something. I'm self conscious and reserved. I hate it when people look at me or when they ask if I have a breakout. Seriously, like duhhh.. What do you think those ar? Like I purposely put those bump on my face or purposely make it uneven? And ever since I experienced this, I often ask myself why me? Why not my sister who has 99.9% the same genetic make up as I do? Why not my close friends? Why not those people with flawless skin? WHY ME!?!??!?!!? It is quite frustrating and stressful and upsetting and depressing. You name it. Then, I realize, maybe these people with flawless skin have already a break out before. Alfred, Batman's butler in Dark Knight, once said, the night is darkest before dawn, and the dawn is coming. So I'd like to think that I will get better. Having this breakout is only one example of a lot of hurdles that I've encountered. I like to think that I am put in this situation because I am stronger than a lot of people and that I can handle it better than a lot of people can. But quite frankly, sometimes, I feel like killing myself. Blahhhhhhhhh. I hate this!

Well, maybe when something bad happens to you, you can tell yourself it happened to you because someone knows you can handle it better than others can. Plus, if EVERYone were to ask why them, I guess nothing bad or unfortunate will ever happen. And we'll never know what is good or how lucky we are. Keep faith. Count your blessings. Seriously, it can get a whole lot worse. What doesn't kill you will only make you stronger! ;D